So. Jack's not gay. I mean, I kind of knew that? He has been married before and he has a daughter and a grandson. But still. That was a relatively long time ago and I know his heart has belonged to Ianto for a long time ( Read more... )

Jack and I kissed today. Well, I kissed him. But he did kiss me back. Then things got awkward. He got really quiet and looked at me in this strange way that I couldn't really place. I felt bad and started rattling on about something stupid.

Still. We kissed. I don't know what that means for me. For us. Have I just ruined a friendship?

Jack's taking such good care of me. It's almost domestic. He's baking banana bread, making coffee. I really have to remember that he's kinda my boss and is only taking care of me like I did for him after he was shot. But his smile is so big and endearing and he put his hand over mine the other day, I feel like maybe it's more? Do I just want that ( Read more... )

So I'm dead ( Read more... )

Jack arrived today. He said Gwen and Rex would be by in a few days to visit. He gave me such a big hug when he saw me. Big and yet so gentle, like he thought I would break. I think he was even on the verge of tears. I don't know why. I'm just so inconsequential in the big scheme of things. But he said something about having lost too many people ( Read more... )

I don't think there's a part of me that doesn't hurt. I just...ache all over, everywhere. And the places where the bullet tore through me are just this icy-hot searing pain. Is this what it felt like for Jack every time he came back to life? I think I'd go crazy if this happened over and over again. I hope Archie gets in touch with Jack soon. He's ( Read more... )

Character name: Esther Drummond ( Read more... )